a cause for epiphany

Or something along those lines. I don't know what it is that would cause an epiphany but I believe there is a cause for one out there.

I've been down the past couple of days, just the blues, the mid February, the change, the uncertainty, the dwindling funds, the feeling of stuck...

I'm having such a hard time booking shows which is what I think saps my confidence the most right now... I want obviously to do my music for a living, and if I can't even get some live shows lined up, how am I to effectively promote? I wish that my CD would land in the right hands or whatever, or that I had that insight into what I need to be doing better, more effectively. I know that I am working hard, but perhaps not efficient enough.

SO, big news for us is that the road trip is absolutely on. We will not be moving into the house that I mentioned earlier, last post, because of a lot of reasons, mainly that it was too temporary, and too much money to pay for a temporary house for a month that we won't even be there. And we've given notice to our current landlord. And I've told my job I'll be gone for a month at least.

So if I can get some gigs for at least the West Coast part of the trip, I think i will feel very good about the whole thing.

Its not a question of IF, I will dammit.

O, and I should be raving about this, that my instrumental album "You Are The Driver" is mixed masterd and done.

Tomorrow I will be posting the whole thing on my site for a week or so of free downloads. And then when I'm done with the trip and whatnot, I'll get it on iTunes and print a few CDs. I'm listening to it right now and I'm really happy with it, I've never heard an album like it... in the sense that it is blending these worlds of classical and electronic pretty well... taking acoustic sounds and manipulating them into a new thing... its neat. Its like Godspeed You Black Emperor on E and Red Bull, but not as lame.

Or something.